Required Info

Display Name

modicumx

Age

61 years, 1 month ago

Location

USA

State or Province

California

Nearest Big City

Los Angeles

Sexual Identity

male

Sexual Orientation

women

Gender Identity

male

Anything Special You'd Like To Say

Jesus loves everyone and i hope that shows through me!

Preferred Pronoun

he / him

Optional Info

Education

I went to Virginia Tech for 4 years but didn’t get a degree as i decided i hated Industrial Engineering. 🙂 It was supposed to be a mix of math and psychology but back then it seemed to be all math. I took advertising and psychology on the way out before i left for Los Angeles. I went to L.A. City College for a year in the early 90s to take Drug & Alcohol counseling and learn better Spanish. Also I have played music since elementary school so i was in marching, concert and jazz bands from middle school through college, so in a way that turned out to be my main education.

Work

I was out of work for a few years, then worked a seasonal job cleaning the Rose Bowl Pavilion for a few years, then finally got a full-time job at a warehouse for just over a year, and just recently hurt my back! Right now i’m waiting to be approved by a doctor to return to work, but would still prefer a desk job which is what i spent most of my life doing. So i’m still looking for a job and a career i finally fit and qualify for, while doing some freelance/contracting work such as websites, writing and graphic design, and playing in bands. I have thought of teaching but i’ll need to get credentials, etc. In the past i’ve had a few interesting jobs, starting with the most recent:

-Internet Producer at DisneyStore.com through a temp agency, where i uploaded all the products to the website, learned and used Oracle and the CMS, and also did a lot of QA.
-Assistant Editor at WeddingChannel.com
-Research Analyst in healthcare where i helped write treatment guidelines, published the annual handbook and coordinated the new website.

Hobbies and Interests

I’ve loved music my whole life and play guitar, keyboard and saxophone, and currently play in a cover band. In the past i have played in some original bands as well. I love to write and record my own songs and need to do much more to promote them such as recording and posting videos. And i’m shy. 🙁 I love to read but don’t do it much any more. I love theology and politics, learning and writing about them. I’m a recovering addict with over five years sober, but i’m still smoking a few cigarettes a day and need to get back into exercise!

Pets, Children, Grandchildren

I just have my awesome brother, two sisters and Dad (Mom passed in 2014), plus some great cousins. I am the only sibling still not married, so i live vicariously through my 6 nieces and nephews. I don’t like pets, plus it’s hard enough to take care of myself LOL.

Faith / Denomination

I think i would describe my understanding like this: I am a born over believer in Josh the Chosen (aka Jesus the Christ), with strong Zen and 12-step influence. I think Christianity needs to step back and appreciate more that God is BIG, even though i believe JtC embodies what God is, as love in a human being. I prefer the “higher power” concept or “the Force” from Star Wars and i think that God should be called IT as maleness is undefinable without genitals or hormones (or even with them!) The Zen part is basically i like to think wholistically, and all opposites such as tall/short, light/dark, good/bad and even belief/unbelief are like two ends of a shoelace, and can’t be divided in “half.” This is represented by the tree of the experience of function and dysfunction at the beginning of Genesis in the Bible. Don’t eat from that tree; God says it’s ALL GOOD! (Genesis 1:31)

Relationship Status

Single for so so long LOL. I think most of the time i prefer to be alone and work on myself, but i’m also hesitant to be TOO close to people, it just seems hard to find someone that “fits” and is worth all the work! :p And how are we supposed to find one person that is better for us than about 2 BILLION others on the planet?

Degree of "Outness"

Luckily i can be out as a straight person, but i would like to fight more for gay acceptance among Christians. I appreciate my feminine side as i am a lot like my awesome Mom.

Seeking Friends or Dating

I Am Seeking

Friends, My Soul Mate, Travelling Companion, Spiritual Companion

Height

5'8"

Weight

176 YIKES

Hair

I like to have unconventional musician hair but right now it's fairly short and hopefully spiky. I get it cut every 6 months whether i need it or not.

Facial Hair

I've had a soul patch since the 90s, except for that period when i had a trucker 'stache and heavy metal hair.

Race

So white

Ethnicity (cultural origin)

My origins are German, Irish and English. I wish i could get a melanin transplant and be brown!

Languages Spoken

English, pretty good Spanish and a little Tagalog. Pagpalain kayong Diyos!

Disabilities

None i just feel like i have hyperfocused ADD which makes it hard to switch between things, such as i hate to go out, but once i'm out i don't want to go home. LOL

Smoker

Still smoking maybe 5-7 cigs a day, outside the house. It slows me down so i would like to quit, eventually…

Alcohol Habits

Clean and sober since September 30, 2014, thank God (also from approx 1992-2004). See Drugs for more info.

Drugs

Clean and sober since September 30, 2014 (also from approx 1992-2004). I've done a lot of coke, smoked crack for about a year and did meth for about 5 months until i realized i hated it. I quit smoking weed years ago because it makes me paranoid.

Tatoos or Piercings

I want some tats! Haven't had $ for awhile but I have ideas for a cross on one shoulder, on the other YHWH written from top to bottom in the shape of a man, the 3 colored Pittsburgh steel triangles on my hand, and even the Jesus on the forearm that incorporates my own hand.

Keywords

straight, music, musician